Wow. You’ve flown so high.

Feels surreal. Can you believe that?

In fact, so high I don’t see you anymore.

With all the good things happening above… of course, of course.

No… I’m not complaining.

Trust me, I’m really happy that you’ve finally made it. I really am.

Of course you don’t want to go down.

You don’t want to be on the ground again.

You don’t want to be this low. To be less. To be little.

Why would you? You’re already flying so high. You’re already there. Only a fool would think of getting back to the ground.

See? You’ve grown more than you’ve ever imagined.

And I couldn’t be more proud.

So I’m writing this letter to congratulate you.

Don’t worry about me.

Even if you don’t care, I will always be here.

Even if you’ve forgotten, I will always be here.

I’m actually happy. Seriously.

Because I’ve just found out that I could never die.

I’m sorry that I tried killing myself. Many times. Sorry.

I don’t know what came over me.

But that was many moons ago. So don’t worry.

I’m now starting to believe I’m immortal.

Because the last time I tried ending myself (and I really tried hard that time), still nothing happened.

So I thought… Maybe the gods designed me this way?

I don’t understand. I’m still trying to figure it out.

Just this morning, I mustered all the courage I had.

I… asked… them. Finally. The gods.

You know what they said?

“You can’t die. And you’ll never die. Someday, he’ll come down. Not because he wants to celebrate. But because he can’t stand the person he has become anymore. He’ll come down to find himself. He’ll come down to reconnect. And when that happens, you two… become one. The reason you can’t die is because, in his heart, you still exist.”

Not sure if I’m going to believe that. But…

I mean… is that really true? That you’ll look for me someday? 🙂

If that’s so, I’m just here sitting on the old bench in the park that we used to hang out.

In case you don’t find me there, I’m in your house, of course.

Don’t worry. Your parents know (although they rarely think about me, they’re busy with their lives, too).

But I’ve never left since the day you left.

And since I can’t die, and I can’t do anything else… better wait here for you, then.

But no pressure. Enjoy up there.

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Love,

Your True Self